iT'S mY LiFe

lOsT

2004-12-30T20:34:00.000+08:00

hiya peeps its been a long time since ive blogged.....haiZ school reopening and im still as lost as a kid in a shopping mall man...a few weeks ago went up to one of those chinese speaking villages in thailand's mountain...went there to teach the kids bout god and the first thing that touched me most was when a little kid came right up to me and grabbed my hand and for the rest of the day he followed me around the whole place......and at that moment......i felt as if my heart was on the verge of a seizure. this was the first time in my whole life that a kid whom i did not noe nor seen b4 came right up to clasp my hand in their own......man i was realli thankful that God gave me the chance to do his work up there...

aniwae as the week progressed i begin to feel realli attached to the place and one night as i was resting on a tree i begin to feel as if im already home........a place where i realli belong.....aplace that i can call homeeee and gawd....when it was time to go i realli cried buckets and i realized thereafter that i had not cried so much in my entire life b4......i realli was heart, soul and body broken.....it was just too pain.....almost all goodbyes are......

i began to miss the place as soon as the van was on its wae to chiang mai for our flight home and when i reached home everythng seemed so unnatural....the quietness.... the high rise buildings the wealth of a developing nation in my surroundings and someting clicked in place....this was just a transitionary stage in my life..... i dont feel that this was the place i have to be i must be at it is just a transtion from a phase to another and i realli have to thank god for bringing me thus far and i am not onli grateful but joyful that i finally a direction in life......an ambition which i can work on....

its been three weeks and yet i still cannot adjust....nothing seems normal at all and flashback of the time spent up there kept coming fast and furious....and worst still school is starting and i am so realli lost as to how i shld complete my hols hw and everything in singapore make me feel lost and alone.....i realli cannot bear the distance from that beloved village.....i realli hope that i can put it behind and concentrate on my coming o's and thereafter up the mountain i go again and hopefully there would not be ani obstacle in my wae if not...seriously speaking i will go mad.....serious.....veri serious......haiZ i must be boring u peeps with my lamentation....

haiZ so sorry lar i need somewhere to unload....gawd i still have theory next year together with my o's how bad can this get and i still have a A Maths qualifying test to pass.....argh....i realli dunno wat to do....im at a lost....a man who is blind......a fish without scales..... irealli feel like giving it all up.....and just fleeee to the comfort of the mountains.......the people.....damn...*bLuRrED......gosh since when was i so emotional???this is bad......haIZ have to go, still got 2 theory test to finish...argh....hope i have time to come here and mope agian...

aniwaex buai guys hope u peeps have enjoyed ur hols and have prepared for thenext year.....
cHeErIoSSS!!! -sObS sIlEnTly='(

argh...my balls

2004-09-12T22:08:00.000+08:00

its so damn painful man......though we won the acs barker "b" 6-4 it was definitely not a memorable one....i got kick in my balls man....full blown....tell u all males....u dun wanna feel wat it is like man....aniwae todae training oso got whack but not as dangerous...hurhurhurhur....got dunk and subsequently kicked in the head full blown again.....i dunno lar but i feel like im a soccer ball or sth.....

aniwae todae was my first time in a english worship praise team....walau so excited/nervous/scared that i woke up at five automatically without alarm clock.....first time in my whole life i did this......den at five thirty, got too bored turning around in bed so i got up and got ready even though i have to be there at eight thirty....wah....i was a walking zombie for the whole dae lor.....after that the teen fellowship...suppose to lead worship den i was so so so tired that i did a slipshod work of it ......im so sorry god....but iwas too darn tired....haiZ den after that went waterpolo trning....was inbetween the dead and the living....

yar.....so i guess i go now ar.....so long peeps.....til next time.......cHeErIoS

sweet victory

2004-09-08T22:29:00.000+08:00

yaha peeps....had a successful outing against acs barker A.... 8 to 5....it was a unexpectedly easy win though....i guess its becos all the sec fours are bz studying for there o's.....hehehehe too bad for dem hurhurhurhurhurhur....

before that went to amk library to study.....lucky there was a seat available man....if not i will be reading again.....hehehehe

getting very nervous leh....my first praise team worship coming man, hope i dun screw up cos it realli will be embarrassing man....haiX...at the most i will just have stage fright...lolx...

argh tomolo got the writing course again man......i guess malcolm will blow his top man.... my story is so so very screwed.....decided that had to change the plot cos my current plot was simply goin no where.....

haiX.... ani wae team Toa Payoh....good game and keep it up and we might just beat RI....cHeErIoS....

2004-09-08T22:28:00.000+08:00

rELiEvE

2004-09-04T22:54:00.000+08:00

omg!!! i'm so so dead..... i made a perfect fool of my idiotic self man....i was worried for nuts???? this is so embarrassing.....im realli so darn dead man. aniwae tomolo is moi church first combine english and chinese worship. aint that a big break.woooohoooo, looking for'ard to tomolos service.

time flies faster den a F-16 man. now one more month to end of year, so close liao. thinks i gonnaa mug through this whole week at the library or summat. im so screwed man, failed four subjects and its so aaaaaarrrrrrggggggggghhhhhhhh.....i failed history tooo?????????? wad the hell happening to me man.....haiZ im gonna drown man.

aiyar, mondae still got the writing workshop....so sian. bet malcolm gonna chase man. this book of mine oso so screwed......haIz.

aniwae got ta go bathe now.... yep so long peeps...... happy holidaes.......cHeErIoS

dEpReSsIon?? aN OpTiOn??

2004-08-31T21:47:00.000+08:00

i refuse to go into depression man. i dun wanna slip into depression, it is a time waster and it realli sucks. its like u walk around like a zombie without smiling or laughing, can uu imagine??? no laughter, i will practically die man. god help me. i realli dunno wat happen. it was like one moment want to make me feel wanted den another moment like just totally turn off. i was quite stunned tho, its like i haven tok to her for like how long and its like how did she get so pissed with me? im realli puzzled..... pls enlighten me god..... but i guess i would nver get to find out judginf from my extreme silence.....lolx

i just wanna drown myself in music.....ani music in fact, onli outlet for me to cool down and keep me from getting depress. thanks god for music man. feeling so darn losted now, wat to do ar? just so screwy and sucky tho i noe this sorta things can happen out of the blue. i realli am seriously puzzled.

but glad to noe that soon, i will have my hands full. at last, my church goin fulltime english worship AND i will be rostering on the praise team........ChEeRs...........sometimes i just feel that music is my life, without it i will wither and drop. but thank god again for music......hurhurhur.
den, not forgetting the training sessions for the end of year mission trip to northern thailand, after this screwed up crap i just wanna get losted in gods neverending love and serve him, mebbe even foregoing my studies.....hehehehe.........mum would probably kill me if she sees this.....lol

boohoo....... i still cant blive we lost the debate just BY 10 points omg.....could have went semi finals larXXXXXXXX haiZ wadeva, still got julia gabriels next year..... looking forward to it man.....

aniwae i tink i gotago so chiao peeps......

aBsEnCe

2004-08-31T21:34:00.000+08:00

hi PeOpLe, its been a long long time since i blogged. haiZ, it seems i cannot find time to do stuff i wanna do, but at times it seems that i have too much time to spend on god noes wat. just sit round and build castles in the air. lol. i noe i shld study man, but its just so boring....... some of u might noe wat i mean tho.....hehehehehe.

aniwae, sundae just pass and wow. im so glad to sae that the gospel rally was good.amazing. esp 'how great thou art' the chorus was just so majestic, i tot my string would break tho.....lol.....used too mucha strength. todae we missed three periods of A maths. cheeers man. but we heard that mr ang was hospitalised cos he met with a car accident.....i was quite guilty after hearing it.

lots of things happen between the last time i blogged until now, some of them were spirit lifting most were neutral and quite a few which were depressing, but my personality just wont letme get depressed. i still like to quote my fren, ' jared, why u everytime laugh one ar? dont u get sad? or summat?' for me, anithing that is meant to be will be. i will just let it go with out giving a shit literally. is like u scold me upside down inside out but the next moment everything will be forgotten.....lol. im so glad im liddat....... i saw people getting depressed and man, it realli sucks. just dunwanna get depressed. so if u peeps wanna throw anithing on me, ur temper, ur thots or grievance, feel free to do it. i've been slping late lately...... and i more often den not get a terrible hangover even a screeching parrot cannot pull me from......

aniwae, gotago now cos tomolo got sch..........yes tt reminds me that teachers dae ish tomolo.......goin back to my primarysch. brings back childhood memories......and yar, hope that i have time to continue blogging. nItEx pEePs........cHeErIoS

8/31/04

hopeless XiA

2004-06-23T22:39:00.000+08:00

hi peeps, todaes's game lose de hen bu shuang lor. firstly the referee was super bias towards us, one of the goal we scored was refuted by him, we were like wanted to scold him inside out lor, but what to do, see us not happi. secondly, we had TWO national players to be damnit and THREE youth team members and some more got two swimmers and one is a freestlye champ....argghh
lose de bu gan yuan leh. haix some more by two balls darnation.

tomolo against safsa, tt one oso must give up hope liao larz sing armed force swimming assoc expected tobe lost....hehehe....sslacker man me....gonna sign off now, kind of nervous breakdown liao lol .... aniwaex buaiX

thrashing

2004-06-22T23:16:00.000+08:00

yoyo peeps! so long nber blog liao, aniwaex todae got under 20 competition. i was so lack of stamina lor, like one month nver go train liao, by the end of the 2nd quater i was shag to death and although we played quite alright we got thrash 23-0. haiZ chinese swimming club is like the under 20 champs lor, and somemore all the players frm hwa chong jc waterpolo team, we knew we would be thrashed but it was one hell of an experience hehehehe.

went to watch around the world in eighty daes on fridae. darn farnie man, laughing my head off through the whole movie lol. looking forward to home on the range, heard its another comedy, hahahahahah, laughing seems so easy so carefree......so coool. aniwaezzzzz i wanna go sleep now, so tired, tomolo against acsi 'a', definitely need all the strength i need......so longg peepzzzzZZZZZZZZ

a NeW mEaNiNg

2004-06-16T11:51:00.000+08:00

hiX pEePs, just completed mi volunteer program at the birdpark, trainig the birds allowed me to realiZe something, some times it seems that i am like those birds, caged up and onli called up when needed....sometimes
i realli feel that life realli sux or mebbe wat the things are in my life which suxs.

aniwae, while we were walking around after the supervisor release us, me and leo met nichole and TYH....little did i noe that the next one hour plus would contain a helluva shock to me. it seemed that i onli noe the tip of the iceberg of the rumours and secrets tt had been circulating around. i am totally and fully freaked out, i dunno how i gonna go back to sch man...and now this shitto....argghhh
aniwae, this shows that im a super anti-social man...hehehe aniwaes overall i think that the bridpark thing is an enriching experience for me... and i would not mind goin back to do it again...

im such a slacker man, haven even touch me holidae hw, and mi novel is like waewaewaewaewaewaewae behind time... and now this thingie, haiZ, how i just hope i can go back in time and clear stuff up... argggghhhggghhh

haiZ aniwae peeps goin nowZ, o yar and mistiqe's idiosyncracies pls tell me hu choo are? thanks... buaiX peeps

cOuNt bAsIe rAWkS

2004-06-13T22:49:00.001+08:00

yo!! juZ came back frm training, wah. yesterdae went to went to watch the count basie orchestra at esplanade. wow. this is jazzy outfit rawks. and the drummer ceased to amaze me man. his hand moved so fast it was a blur and the rythym was superb but overall,i think count basie deserved there 17 grammy awards and 2 grammy hall of fame title manX.

aniwaex tomolo got bird park volunteer thingie at 830. so darned early. guess i'll be knocking off early tonight.heeX. haIx ive got this feeling that things are not alrite....rite juz things... hehehehe aniwae i goin soon so long PeEps tIll nExT tImE....nItE aNd bUaIx...

BeSt bEt

2004-06-10T22:56:00.001+08:00

hiyOx!!! went to watch best bet yesterdae after training. wow. brilliant. the plot was quite twisty and super hilarious manX. laugh till i had a stitch up mi side. but if u wanna watch have to noe a bit of hokkien, jus a teeny bit to understand the joke cos the eng subtitles dun convey much. but i seriously give it a five star rating and i think it rawk most among all the jack neo movies.

haiZ.. mi bro ish back man, jus went to pick him up to dae, walauX, reach home oreadi got commotion liaoX.... i see 10 daes of peace and silence flying awae... damnit, got to tolerate his crap and nonsense. the most is i go mad onli lar hehehehehe. no big deal right or issit left????....lame Xia. worse still im still at 1k words and malcolm change sum stuff...argh, i getting quite sick of this idea....heheheheh...mrs tang will be sho disappointed...lol
plus its so depressing, the ignorance, seriously dunnoe wat went wrong, sth with me or stuff, haiX, too bad i such a...... lol niwae...

this hols is flying man but aniwae, cant wait to go back to school.... realli je te manque her man...hiaX...

aniwae, i gtg so long cheerios....

lOsT

2004-06-07T23:51:00.000+08:00

hihi, im back. todae was one hell of a training, played two full quarters and still hab to be goalie when they practice shooting. my legs sore and rubbery like hell. aniwae,when i was on my wae to bishan, i began to think,i usually do when i darn tired or stuff, n i realized im reallirealli lost between bgr and neutrality and i keep seeing things man.weird. i think i too delusional liaoZ, starting to see her everywhere, aniwaeX,this is definitely not good, better try some formulae to slack it off and i realli have to admit im out of touch with god. ireallidunno watta do.dingdong.wake up plX...

swimming in the dark waters of the sea of lurve. confused delusional lost brink of sanity disillusioned yearning. that is how i feel now ar. quite rojak ar...hehehe....

now im forced to go national youth training though my stamina gone down like xiao liao....go their sure lose face one larX. but latta accused of ban tong shui or sth...heeX....life's like that must excel in one area den can go on living it...

aniwaeZ im slping soon, have to pump a few more words den i will probably knock....still incommunicado larX...dunno whether it turned out alright.....heeX leave it to god to decide yar....so long peeps chEeRIoS aNd gOd bLeSS

tHiS iS LiFe

2004-06-07T13:56:00.000+08:00

yOhOx pEePs!!! went to class bbq last night. now... that's wat i call life man. standing there barbecuing and downing cans and cans of coke made me feel that this could not be better.den when i almost goin tt time, kit qin tell me that he certified me a bbq chef.lolx.could not stop saeing that the chicken was so darn nice and stuff.....aniwae i had fun man and hope there will be more bbq to come...hehehehe.

walaux, i die liao lar, by this week need to pump out at least 10 thou words man. i onli at 1 thou, serious deep shit manx. malcolm was like walau wat the hell have u been doin..aniwaeX,jus called mr lam juZ now, he saed that miss lo dun allow animore peeps to go jArPaN... but he sae if mi results are good next year, he will consider to let me go, but i am having reservations man, the o's are next year man, dunno i miself wanna go a not....dUhX yEs....erm....nAhx....sheeSh, freakin lamer, next year see how lar.

aniwae peeps, go to go, training ar threee BuAiXXX

mElAnChOLiC aNtI-sOcIaLiSm

2004-06-06T16:31:00.000+08:00

hi PeEpS! went to watch harry potter last night at ps instead, too bad i did not grace the festival of praise though i heard that hillsongs positively rawk in that concert but wats da point fo there alone, peeps will think i mad, so rather go catch a movie.haiX. i was reminded of my anti-socialism when the ticket seller tot i wanted two seats and had no more until about 8 plus. the misunderstanding was found out when i selected first row seat and he charged me 17 bucks. den i told him one seat is sufficient fo my bulk...lame....aniwae the movie is ok, cant wait to have a go at home on the range and around the world in eighty daes.

todae went church just to find out that there wasn't teeenage fellowship cos todae most of the church goin malaysia for church retreat, though i very much like to take a break at the retreat, i could not help it lorZ that writing workshop, nber go one time need to pay 22.50 bucks. haiX. toking bout that novel, realli realli behind time man.... suppose to be writing 5 thou words by this next week and i onli have erm like 600 plus words....writer's block sucks man....trust me u dun want to have a writer's block writing a novella. aniwae trying to get in to jep, hope mr lam will some how squeeze me in man. asked mi to call him on mondae and hopefully i will recieve good news.

come to think of it, im seriously screwed up man, my studies sucks, my waterpolo sucks, my music sucks,besides all this i wonder what the hell am i here for todae, i just wanna get lost in the jungle or sth, and camp awae my life, in the least, camping is a few thousand times more palatable den studying. im realli full of complains man....hehehehe.....hope time will fly faster den hopefully land a job in obs. tt wat i call life....hehehe....parents definitely will be shock or mebbe not since dey noe wat kinda a person i am.lolx..

aniwae got to go now, got class bbq.....so lonng peeps....bUaIx.....

FiNaLlY

2004-06-05T00:23:00.000+08:00

hIx pEePs!!! currently having writers block and im sth like 19500 plus words behind the 20 thou novella. listening to tHeRe yOu'Ll bE. quite applicable to me though. haiX aniwae todae went training just when tt someone came online.soRrY ar realli had to go. aniwae, distracted thru out the whole training and tt reminds me of yesterdae at yck swimming pool and god leonard does swims like erm faster than old ladies but slower den......ME..keke hehehehe joking lar aniwae he in sailing cannot blame cos basically sailing slack larX.

haiX noe thinking about life doodling and agreeing how each song i am listening to is so applicable to mE? trying to spit sth out for the novel.... i have to agree that the course quite fun but the writing part just puts me off manX...especially with a writer's BlOcKKKKK....argh....

but aniwwae yAwNz, so freaky sleepy......i tink i goin add a few more words den wait and see den kNoCk oFf.... tIL nExT tImE gUyS....nItE aNd bUaIx....cHeEriOs o yAr i FinAlLy hAd tHe CouRAgE ta aSk yAy, tHrEE cHeErs anD tHrEe cHeErS....

There You'll Be

when i think back all these times,
and the dreams we left behind
i'll be glad cos i was blessed to have u in my life
when i look back all these daes
i'll look and see ur face
you're right there for me

in my dreams i always see u soar above the sky
in my heart there always be a place for u for all my life
i'll keep a part of u with me
and everywhere i am there you'll be
and everywhere i am there you'll be

will u show me how it feels
to feel the sky we did not reach
and i always remember all the strength u gave to me
you've made me make it thru
i owe so much to u
u'er rite there for me

in my dreams i always see u soar above the sky
in my heart there always be a place for u for all my life
i'll keep a part of u with me
and everywhere i am there you'll be
and everywhere i am there you'll be

cos i always saw in u my light my strength
and i wanna thank you now for all the ways
u were right there for me
u were right there for me

in my dreams i always see u soar above the sky
in my heart there always be a place for u for all my life
i'll keep a part of u with me
and everywhere i am there you'll be
and everywhere i am there you'll be
tHeRe yOu'LL bE

-FAITH HILL-

mAhLeR rAwKs

2004-05-31T14:32:00.000+08:00

hIhI pEePs!!! yesterdae was a slack dae. couldnt go church cos mi bro packing his luggage and im so happi to announce that he will be gone for about 7 plus daes in yangzhou, somewhere in china, and the internet will be all mine....muahahahaha.....three cheers and three cheers....aniwae back to subject matter, after tt went to lucky plaza to change currency for bro then went far east to check out the spectacle shop. den mi bro went home and mi and mum went to citylink mall where she decided to buy the panasonic x90 den went mph to spend mi 15 bucks book prize plus another 20 percent off.hehehe. ended up buy the Lord of The Rings Trilogy.

den had to go esplanade for mAhLeR'S sYmPhOnY oF a ThOuSaNd.... it was masterfully executed by the sso and the various choir about 500plus performers in all. and the music was brilliant, awesome,fabulous and one of no kind..heheehhe..lame... but all the same, it is one of the best performance i ever went to. was on the bus home when mi mum called to sae she still at citylink mall so i had to double back..haiX..she ended up buying lots of soap and shampoo which we had to practically drag it home... but aniwae, went to nooch thenoodle bar for dinner... yes i mean dinner cos i spent alot of time at mph, no time to eat so therefore had to eat after the concert. wah... reach home at about 12 plus den use the comp until bout threee den slp lar... somemore todae have to go to prebyterian high for the writing workshop thingie at 8 oclock... now super shag man.

aniwae i gonna go get some shut eye so long pEePs.... bUAiZZZZZzzzzzZZZZZ.......lALalAlAnD.....

dAy aFtEr tOmOlO

2004-05-28T06:03:00.000+08:00

mOrNiNg pEePs!!! yesterdae after skool, i went to mgs for a fund raising piano concert,it was quite a rush cos it started at 2 30 while school ended at 2. Even though i dozed of, i think that abigail sin's piano teacher sure is good. but he has a veri active head and moves non=stop while playing the piano.lol. aniwae went to violin lesson after that.HaIx. screwed up or i thinks the teacher bad mood larX.nvm. then decided that im too bored so i went j8 to catch the dae after tomolo. tis show is nice and it is horrifying, terrifying, electrifying and most of all it is quite touching...almost teared..hehehe...

reached home at about 10plus and shag out immediately man. three daes without proper slp makes me darn woozy so i couldnt help it. aniwae, todaes the last dae of skool which is good news and bad news. dun care to repeat mi self but it realli sucks man. i dunno wat i want, school or no school. haIx im iN a reaL spOT. aniwae pEePS GTg sChoOL nOw.....sO LonG>>>>>>bUaIx

shag

2004-05-26T22:59:00.001+08:00

yo peeps... todae was a tired one, i had been slpin at 2 plus in the morning for two continuous daeZ liao. but all the same, had a wonderful time in sch todae, our english teacher showed us a movie 'a few good men'. quite touching though there were some farnie part but it teaches us sth about conscience,loyalty,trust and most of all compassion.

aniwae, went to training todae and as expected, i was shag beyond measure, haiX the worse thing was that my coach wasnt even there, which proves that my condition is realli realli deplorable. haiX. wat to do, now a daes, it is the cert that count most... so studies come first though it realli sucks.hehehehe.

aniwae i am so glad tt this hols will be a bz one, if not i realli will die of boredom. haiX but sadly, i will definitely miss lotsa ppl in sch.

aniwae pEePs... gtg play now and have fun during the hols... miss ya....bUaIx

sUnDaEz rAwKs

2004-05-23T23:47:00.000+08:00

yoX pPL!!! at last i did something meaningful todae.after church went strolling along the whole stretch of orchard road den mi and mi fren window shop at Plaza Singapura. after that i had to split up with him cos i had to go esplanade. though there were two tix, one was wasted cos no one to go with, though i had already tried to ask her out, seems she was bz. and the tix was 27 bucks lor but gotit free lar heex. someone frm church gavit to mi. aniwae looking forward to next weeks mahler's symphony of a thousand. wah mus be damn good lar all the tix all sold out.

nownow, i'm realli pissed at mi results but seriously i shld jus blame miself. damn just a bit more determination but i jus cant resist the internet man. haiZ, my mum shld have grounded mi b4 and during the exams den mi results could be betta. wallowing in regrets. but studying realli bores mi. wat to do, life's like dat. haIZ.

aniwae pEePs i have ta sign off now... cos i'm bz chatting... heEx nItEx pEePs....ZZZZzzzzzzZZZZ

resignation

2004-05-21T23:20:00.000+08:00

yOyO pEePs!! got back my results over the last two daes. i'm resigned to my sad state.haiX. my L1R5 definitely shooting up to 30 plus liao lorZ.failed chinese and maths and surprisingly, my chinese got higher than both my maths. at the least, i still have an a1 for mi lit but was not to be for my english cos of the screwed up summary.

aniwae, got hold of the internet pswd when mi bro gave mi hish fren's internet pswd. salvation man at last got to use the internet after 30 plus hrs. pUrE tOrTuRe manX.

haiX, gonna play MU latta, but walauX, tomolo still gotta go sch for some supplementary thingie hab ta slp early. the daes are practically crawling by man. realli realli BORED... cooped up at home plus no internet= to death becoZ of boredom.

aniwae, i goin play MU, so cYa rOuNd pEePs aNd tAkE cArE....

ruussstttinnnnggg aaawwwaaaeeee

2004-05-18T00:04:00.000+08:00

yOx peEPs!! todae was mediocre. the lit paper 2 was a mid-killer especially the analytical questions and worse of all, the paper was upon 50 0_0 wat the hell! mebbe i will jus scrape lar but realli shitty cos if i dun score in the subjects i quite good in, den mi overall will be like borderline pass.it is begining to get quite scary knowing that my o's are jus round the corner... frightening even. haiX. i'm realli am lost.realli deep in LalA lAnD.

aniwae afta that, me, tok and shem went to leo house,played a bit of soccer, unfortunately i kicked the ball into leo's neighbour hse but fortunately nth was broken. den afta tt, we went into his semi-d (or issit a bungalow?) to play ps2 which i realli suck at cos i lose to everione in soccer bball and wwe. den afta tt went to eat at nearby hawker centre. den i had a shock it was like 4 plus liao lar.luckily mi mum working so she did not find out tt i went out for about 6hrs or so.

bleaghX. i realli wanna go back to school but i oso want da hols. realli mixed up larX.but i noe one thing i'm rusting awae and another thing is im lost in the vortex of lUrV3.

aniwae pEePs iTs late so i gotta go now. gud nite.buaiX...

grounded

2004-05-16T12:00:00.000+08:00

yOz pEePs!!! did not update this blog for quite a spell liao. reason being i'm grounded from using the internet cos mi mum got a shock afta browsing thru the electricity bill due to me switching on the comp frm afternoon till morning 1 plus am( the jump was like frm 50 bucks to 120+ bucks, anione would be shock hehehe).actualli, i was trying to catch hueva i'm catching online and chat, now i'm suffering but i tink it was worthy[ or mebbe not :=( ] cUz now i can hardly come online. missed the chatting manZ. but i realli can't bring myself around to ask, wat the hell, it's so darn frustrating. haiZ, realli resigned to fate.

aniwae, the lit paper on fridae was quite easy, xcluding the fact that i did not have time to finish it too.heeX, i was aiming high for about 20 to 22but i guess that's out ó question now that i realized i missed out quite a big chunk of important stuff at the last question but i was realli StArVeD for time.hAiX.

aniwae i guess i will be going back for training next week and u can't guess how happi i am at the thought of training during the school hols, i am already so so so bored rusting at home at this point of time, it would be even worse during the school holidaes loRZ. plus i need to catch up with a lotta stuff i put on hold during the exam period. at the same time, i'm realli glad that exams' are over and the relaxation period is coming though i've mixed feelings boutit. bleaghX, lets hope june hols will turn out better den i tot it would. lets juZ hope........

suppose to go church todae but me mUmX ish darn sick lar, migraine and all the usual stuff so i gotta stay at home to take care of her, while my bro ish enjoying his freedom(jealousy hEeX). but i realli have to thank him for giving his fren's internet pswd if not i would not be able to produce this kinda long blog.

kZZ pEEpS... think i sign off now... i wanna go play gunbound....which i haven touch for like daeZZZZZ... bUaIX.... mIsS aLl u PpL... cHeErIoS ;PpP

wHeW!! mAjOr cOmbAt oPeRaTiOnS oVeR

2004-05-13T23:54:00.000+08:00

hIhI!! pEePs!! wat a relief, all major exams over liao left lit onli, quite minor hehehe, aniwae todaes history paper was as usual starved for time. even though i studied onli about 20 pages or so of the textbook and the fact that i couldn't complete the structured essay question, i believe that i might scrape. luckily, i happen to glance thru the chapter on one of the question we were suppose to choose. so far, all the exams tt have past are quite ok if u bother to study lar but if u dun study still can scrape lorZ.

budden some schools are so darn lucky they dun even have mid-yr but the pupils are complaining that the school system is warped. wat madness. imagine not having mid-yr. how mani brain cells could we save from death? and i cannot believe it lorZ, we go sch for 45 mins for one paper onli den hab to go another dae for the second part of the paper while the rest of the sec three slack at home. now this den ish called warped.

aniwae, i am and am notlooking fo'ard to the June holidays. glad that i can relax and pick up where i left off my training but unhappy simply becos i will be dead bored and most of all, not being able to see moi frens esp some/a special ppl/person;-(

oKiEs pEePs, gOtTa gO sLeEp nOw, sO lOnG sWeEt dReAmS eVeRIoNe!!!nItEzzZZZZZzzzzzzzz:::

bOrEd!!

2004-05-13T10:36:00.000+08:00

tOdae was crap, though im confident of getting 30+ for Amaths that means i will still fail. haIz i'm realli beginning to get sick of studies. i mean wats the point man, u study and mug ur life out jus to get a lousy cert? u could that doin lots of other things like sports, or camping, or even hiking. i realli find that i'm simply rusting in school haiZ. and somemore, i've not been training for like more than one months, go back sure kana torture like mad one lorZ..

aniwae i find the chemistry paper quite easy for those hu had studied but sadly i jus read thru a few pages if that is counted as sTuDyInG.lolX. haiZ currently slackin lar.actualli want to study for history one but afta a few pages i gave up. i'm realli realli realli SICK. its so meaningless man. mugging ur lItTlE bRaInS oFf. i jus wanna live life to the fullest lorZ. aniwae this has been quite a fruitful year for me. at least i had went to 2 camps but definitely wanting more.

haIz guess i had better stop blogging man, even though its sick, i have to do it coZ there's still a few ppl called parents arnd and if i do badly, hell will come knocking on mY dOoRs and at the same time, the guilt will be too overwhelming haiZ, i'm beggining to get super long winded haiZ. kKzz buaIX ppL.hAvE fUn mUgGiNg

sLeEpY;|

2004-05-13T04:26:00.000+08:00

hIz pEePs, ssuppose to be studying history now but i still a bit blur headed lor. i recently jus found this downloading platform quite a big base of users and downloading quite fast lar. have to dl and install one horZ.

aniwae the whole of last nite was spent playing gunbound haiZ. so now is payback time lar. but i realli realli bored beyond measures.oso damn tired.

hhmmmXXX jus to recap, last sundae concert at esplanade with hallelujah oratorio was awesome, the songs were brilliant and the music was definitely one of a kind lorZ. haiZ. how i wish i could jus have two things in my life, the great outdoors and of course, my music. toking about da outdoors, i still cannot forget obs. that camp positively rocks like nobodies business lar. it is the best camp i have went at least up to this point of time. hoping and waiting that i will have a chance to go to da 21daes one.

da june hols are just round da corner. yay!!!.but it is so darn ironic lor. when theres a long holiday like one month or sth, i will be at home wishing i was in school cos the days seems to crawl, but when i'm in school, i realli wish i can have a short break from it all.

but for now more mUgGiNg is fOrEcAsT sO i tink i bettar zhao to continue my mUgGiNg. sO lOnG pEePs:::: cHeErIoS